Well, here I am. Sitting at the library fitting into the stereo-typical New Year Resolutionist category. Resolutionist, is that even a real word?
After a quick Google, Urban Dictionary has told me it is and I'm using it correctly.
I've collected my self help books; one about blogging, one about photographing everyday life and the most important, one about food.
It isn't about what to eat or what not to eat. It isn't a cookbook. It's more like, "Hey, you eat the wrong stuff for the wrong reasons... so read about how that's terrible for you! ". Oh, and here are some tips on how to, "end mindless eating once and for all". ('Eating the Moment' by Pavel G Somov, Ph.D.)
"Offers 141 mindfulness activities to help you listen to your body, understand why you're eating, and control your cravings if you're eating out of habit or because of your emotions."
I plan to do just that! This year is the year! Ha! How many times has someone said that? For me personally? I'm not sure I have. You see, I'm the type of person who gets really excited about doing something new... (like blogging even,) and then rather quickly gets distracted, busy or just looses interest. Oh, and I have been known to quit things when they are hard! (Like my dairy-free stint; that was a terrible idea!)
However, this year, I demand to make a change... But let me be honest; I can be perceived as a person a lot of women hate. I am tall, look fit enough, and most are in the opinion that I have no reason to be unhappy with my weight or size. This however, is not the case at all! I have terrible eating habits that are slowly hurting me more and more each year. When you're younger it seems to never catch up to you but I know better. So regardless of your opinion on my weight or size (which, to be transparent, is hovering between 146-152 and I am a size 10), my health needs to become a focus in my life! With this in mind, I'd also love to see those abs they say are made in the kitchen, yet, I've spent plenty of time in there and I've never seen an ab, not one...
Hey! To each their own though right?
So here is mine:
I eat terribly! I love starches, fats and creams. Rarely do I need chocolate, but there are times, without a doubt, that I'm looking for a sweet bite. I over eat, over indulge, and binge all too often. I can clean a plate like most men and am often the butt of jokes if food is involved. "Kim loves food!", "Ask Kim if she wants some, you know how she is about food!"
I also love Sprite! Yep, high fructose corn syrup and all. Not to mention a good craft beer or a delicious magarita...
Here's the reality, I am scared. Scared to walk away from the food I not only love but have grown accustom to. All of my favorite foods are unhealthy and honestly bring me pleasure. There are few things in life I love more than taking one more bite of amazing food even though I'm uncomfortably full. (Oxymoron? Probably so.)
But this year, I want to make a change. I want to feel good about myself. I want to feel good in my own skin and be happy with what I see in the mirror. (Even at terrible times like bending over and putting on lotion!) I want my clothes to fit the way I've always wanted them to, and I know my diet is the area I must focus on.
I'm usually pretty easy to convince to workout, run or be active. But I have also always rewarded that hard work with a terrible, and satisfying diet. This must stop! That's how you end up being the thin chick who had a heart attack.
To see results and be the healthiest I can be, I must make a change. Mentally first!
So, 2016, get ready to be a year that changes my life. For those of you around me, I want to say I'm sorry if I'm cranky, envious of your food, or ask to smell it with almost a fetish like look on my face.
Cheers to 2016. More miles, less calories and a better me!
Happy New Year!
~Kim